another update

I know Ive been slacking lately, but Ive been struggling alittle and I am finally coming out of the dark. I have been depressed. Not severely, just down. My paranoia is alot better since the abilify has been added to the mix again. But, I must say I hate it. Ive stayed really hungry and in turn I am sure I am gaining 900 pounds as we speak. My sleeping patterns are crazy. Its sunday...no work...and I am up at 6:30. eeeeeeewwwww.
Not much to update on. Jeremys car blew up and we got a new (to us) truck. He is proud and so cute washing it and stuff :) He is such a sweetie.
Ive been painting some....so I am feeling better. I know I am down when I dont feel like doing ANYTHING. I am teaching an online class on Photoshop and Im having a good time doing it. Not too incredibly stressful. My NP doesnt really want me to go back to school and I dont think I want to go back anyway. I have tooooo much going on already!
Thats it for the moment....more later.

Update

Here I am again. I had taken an internet hiatus for a while. I crashed from my mania into the depths of depression. Fun, fun. I am still there, unfortunately. I dont know if it was the mania or the depression, but I got intensely paranoid....staying on the internet far too much, reading about the government, conspiracies....all the crap I shouldnt read when I am having an episode. Anyway, I got extremely hopeless and felt the weight of the world on my shoulders....sooo Hello again, Abilify.
My hands are shaky, I am terribly overly emotional about everything, and just plain sucky, I must say. I am going on an emergency visit to my NP tomorrow and maybe she can straighten me out. Anyway, I wanted to give an update since its been a while. I will write more later when my brain settles.