Overwhelmed

I feel God pulling at my heart-strings. Its such a powerful feeling....very emotional. I cant say this has happened to me very often.

Im just not sure what he's trying to say. Its making me anxious, which most likely makes it harder for me to hear what hes trying to get across. Im having to take vistaril to settle me down some.

I wish I was sure that Im not just going into a manic state. I wish I didnt have bipolar disorder to create doubt in these situations. I cant say that Ive ever had this type of thing happen when I am becoming manic. Its not a usual warning sign.

I feel so ripped to the bone and totally submissive. I guess thats a good thing when it comes to God...its just scary.