Bored

I think I have a chronic case of boredom. I am bored with everything right now. I know I�ve been missing here for a few days; I just have lacked motivation to write. My meds seem to be working as far as my moods go, but I don�t really want to do much. All creativity has gone out the window.

 

I went to the doctor last week and they wanted to check my thyroid. I know that if my thyroid wasnt functioning as planned by the Creator, then it could really screw up my moods. In the back of my mind I was really hoping that it was messed up and Im really not bipolar. However, it turned out to be just fine. I was kind of bummed out about it.

 

To be honest, I was kind of afraid of what it would mean if Im not really bipolar. I guess since I�ve accepted it as something I have to live with, I cant really imagine not having to deal with it. I guess it becomes part of your identity once you have accepted it for a while and it would be strange to have that taken away. Not that I wouldnt like to NOT be bipolar, its just that I am and I guess I am used to it in a lot of ways. That probably makes no sense whatsoever.

 

My friend from work and I have been riding our motorcycles some. Im going to post some pictures. We rode down to the coast this past weekend to check out the Katrina damage. I had not been down there since the storm. It really was a trip. Maybe I will post the pictures this evening.