All Wound Up

Ok, so apparently increasing the Effexor has caused me to cycle more rapidly… I’ve made 900 lists today…things I need to do, putting things in order – you get the picture. I also decided at midnight to go buy groceries. I’m awake. I feel like I could work, or do something…I was crappy last night and today I’m on the upward spiral. I’m not complaining! I can just tell that it’s a rapid cycle. I’m going to try to lie down in a minute and see how sleeping goes. I’m not tired tho. My house is a mess, so I hope I’m this wired tomorrow…it needs a major overhaul. I think I like this rapid cycling thing better than being up 3 weeks and then down 3 weeks…if it has to be one or the other, I guess I’d rather be crappy one day and good & frickin wired the next.

On another note, I wish everyone in the world would stop asking me if I am bisexual since I am dating D. This question causes me great confusion because I don’t know the answer to it. All I know is that I am finding it difficult to go out with a guy…maybe he’s just not the right one…or maybe I’m gay and I cant change it…I’m just choosing not to think about it at the moment & I’m going with the flow. I really don’t get guys…I know that much. Oh well.

I bought myself the last 2 white stripes cds that I didnt have tonight for my birthday...I'm telling myself that theyre from my dad since I bought them with some of the money he gave me for doing some work for him. I havent listened to them yet. Maybe I'll do that now.