The Perils of the Bipolar
I go see my NP Tuesday. I am nervous. I didn’t call her or anyone else last Friday when I thought that taking a shitload of pills was a good idea. I don’t know what to tell her. I mean, I feel ok now….still not great. I don’t think I need to be inpatient right now, but I think if I told her I tried it, I may end up there. I don’t think any anti-depressant will ever work for me. We’ve tried everything under the sun…..lets see….Zoloft, Celexa, Wellbutrin, Paxil, Lexapro, Effexor, Cymbalta…what the hell is left?? I don’t know, this medicine thing is frustrating. A plus on the Cymbalta side is that the sexual stuff has gotten better. Yay! Anyway, what do I tell her?? “I’m feeling better now, but I wasn’t doing so hot and I tried to kill myself, and although I was glad to be alive the next day, I am not so sure about it now….but I can get off when I have sex!!” Hmmmm….
posted by Jil at 12:08 PM
7 Comments:
Maybe they just haven't gotten the dosage on the cymbalta right... but it's the right thing.
She won't judge you. She already takes your money. ;)
1:37 PM
Well, the sex part is good! One of the things about mental illness, I think is like the ism's (alcoholism, etc.) That is that it's our mind that's doing these things. Just as an alcoholic or a schzophrenic will think they're all better, that doesn't mean they really are.
That said, I think you need to absolutely-without a doubt-100% definately tell your doctor EVERYTHING. To not tell her is to not protect yourself in the future.
I'm saying this honestly as though I were in your shoes, because in August I was in your shoes.
(what is NP?)
5:41 PM
I don't feel that comfortable giving advice, but I have found that my general feeling about medical people also applied with my mom's psychiatrists and therapists. If you trust them, open up; if they don't seem to be right for you, there's probably someone out there who is.
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8:45 PM
Gettin off with sex is a definite plus though!
9:07 AM
Yes, I also don't want to say too much on the advice level other than it has helped me when I told everything that was going on. It's not like they haven't heard it before. Be safe. You are loved.
1:54 PM
It's important that you are forthright about what's happening. It will affect how your medications are dosed and changed. It could be withdrawl from another med or too slow of a titration on the current med. I have problems with SSRIs they tend NOT to be my friend unless heavily blanced by something else and closely watched. For some people SSRIs are just not a realist drug, particularly when you fall on the BP spectrum. If you feel like your doctor is not someone you can tell everything they are probably not the right doc for you. Come march-ish I'm setting out on a search for a new Pdoc as my old one was woefully underqualified to deal with me. Good luck and happy O-ing
11:50 AM
I would tell the pdoc everything. It is the only way that they know how to treat you right. I feel like you on the drug thing. I have tried so many of them and they haven't worked. I have yet to try Cymbalta or Abilify. I have no sex drive and it is making me and mine nuts. If the Cymbalta works on that I want to try it. God bless.
11:30 PM
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