Hospital
Alright.... I have never been inpatient, but have been evaluated twice. I know how to stay out if I want to stay out. The question is....do I really need to stay out or should I bite the bullet and go in? For those of you who have had that experience - Did it help you? Did it make that much of a difference? If so, why? How long were you there?
I am feeling better...at least I am able to function today. I am at work. I am still just about a 2.5 on the 10 scale....However, thats much better than being in the negative numbers like I was this weekend. I think I am doing a pretty good job acting as "normal" as possible for someone who tried to off themselves a couple of days ago.
I'd really like your hospital opinions though. Thank you guys again for being here.
posted by Jil at 11:42 AM
5 Comments:
Thanks a lot. I will check out your blog, most definately. I just dont know that being inpatient would help me once I am out of my "crisis moment"....which may only last a night...I'm thinking it over though...
12:58 PM
Why don't you talk to that NP that you like alot and ask her what she thinks? Maybe she can give you some input as to where to go and what potential benefits a voluntary stay would bring you.
1:37 PM
When I took myself into the emergency room, they did an eval and then presented me with a number of options of which I was unaware... hospitalization... outpatient care at a specialized facility... just going home.
But doctors gave me their opinion, checked me out. It was the only way I was able to get real help and real choices.
Good luck Jil.
3:50 PM
I went in for five days and followed it up with four and a half months of outpatient. I am more stable now having done so.
The question is do you think there is a possibility that you might do it again in the next few days. If the answer is yes, GO.
I second cat. You want a place that has decent treatment. You might have to share a room with another person (I drew a skinhead whose skin was covered with swastikas and a crazed grocery store worker who was a pretty nice fellow -- I got on with both) but that experience can deepen you. A good program included group therapy options, support groups, and one on one therapy. It should inform you of your rights and have staff who will take the time to talk to you if you feel on the edge.
Pick wisely. Hold yourself close and realize that you will not be there forever. I do warn you that there is a nasty woman standing between you and the recovery that a hospital can give you and her name is also Jil. When she starts up on how people won't ever trust you again, ignore her. I had my own fellow who went on like that for years. Going to the hospital shut him up. He was pretty damn mean.
4:00 PM
If you're thinking you should be an inpatient, chances are you should be an inpatient.
I was in the psych. hospital for 1 week this past August. It was also my first time (I'd spent the night 1 time before).
Am I now glad I went? Yes! It saved my life & I desperately needed to be there.
There is 1 word that resonates with my hospital stay: SAFE
I must agree with Cat & Joel on the therapy aspect of it. The place I was at had no fresh air, no fruits or vegetables, no music, no exercise & the classes that were 'therapy' were stupid.
Fortunately though, my regular therapist saw me almost daily. My saving grace was my journal. I wrote, wrote, wrote. I even colored there during art therapy. When I got home, much of what I wrote was transferred to my blog.
It was a safe place at a time when my life wasnt' safe in my hands. It's an experience I'll never forget & would do it again in a minute.
Nobody can tell you what to do, but I do think you should seriously consider it.
You are much loved Ms. Jil.
2:53 AM
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