Quitting Smoking – Day 2

I haven’t had a cigarette in exactly 35 hours and 56 minutes. I must say that so far its not getting easier. Thank you guys for the support. I need it. Bigtime. I still want to kill people. I have eaten about 900 suckers and a load of peppermints. I swear that I will have no teeth after a while. A co-worker volunteered to roll me a cigarette of gun powder….I guess that tells you how I am perceived at the moment! My head hurts even with the patch on and Im not able to sleep. My brain was on overdrive even after taking a Vistaril last night. The dreams are driving me crazy. I didn’t get a buzz when I put the new patch on…and I put it on my other arm so the rash thing would get better. Now I will have matching rashes…well, I guess that’s better than having matching rashes with another human. See….my thoughts are a bit bizarre. I feel pretty proud of how far Ive made it so far though, I didn’t think I could actually go a whole day without a cigarette…and I guess the block of my mind that thought that quitting was impossible is decreasing, although I am a cranky bitch. It helps a lot to have other people quitting with you. However, me and D went out to eat last night and sat at a bar with people smoking and I had a few beers and I thought I would fall out if I didn’t have a cigarette RIGHT THEN. So…my advice of the day is if anyone decides to quit, DON’T go to a bar on your first day of being cigarette free.