Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Christmas Lights!!



Friday, November 17, 2006

Wedding Stuff

Well, I know I havent said very much about wedding stuff. We’ve kept it fairly private online and at school, and I’ve been pretty busy to write about it much here. We had been talking about getting married for a while. It just seems right. We set a date a couple of weeks ago. I got my ring this week. JW got down on one knee right after I had brushed my teeth (romantic, huh lol) and asked me to marry him. He was scared he’s lose the ring! He was sweet. It was kinda funny too, with the whole teeth-brushing thing. We are getting married March 10th at my aunt and uncles house. All of my cousins, brothers, and JW’s brother and sister are going to be the wedding party. The wedding colors are light pink and black, its going to be cool. I will try to post pictures of the bridesmaid dresses and the cake and all of that good stuff soon. I am really excited.

 

We’ve been moving things around in the house to make room for him to move in. We put 2 new desks in my “old music room” which is now the “new office”. We moved bookcases and all of the office stuff in there and we now have an office where we both can work. The main ordeal will be closet space. I have a ton of clothes and only 3 small (very small) closets in the house. I need to throw a lot of crap away. It is fun getting everything ready.

 

My family is very excited, even my dad is happy about it, which is amazing. My dad is buying my wedding dress. Its really pretty (for a dress lol). I don’t own a dress. My mom is about to die for it to get here so I can try it on and all that. My aunt and uncle and my cousin are going to do the music (guitars and piano), that should be cool.

 

Anyway, on the bipolar front things are going smoothly. All is well, meds seem to be working alright. I think JW is going to go with me to the doc next time I go. My appointment is Dec. 12th I think. It will be good for him to go with me, I think. He needs to know what goes on with me and why. That’s all I know.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Writing About Bipolar

I was asked what effect keeping this blog has on me as a bipolar person. It has different effects on me at different times. If I am down, writing and getting all of the mess out of my brain really helps me a lot. Actually, it helps when I am climbing the walls too. Writing does have a stabilizing aspect to it, I think. It does for me anyway.

 

I think that bipolar people can really benefit from keeping a journal or a blog, especially if the blog is anonymous. Some people cant talk about their illness because of fear, and being able to express how you feel really helps. Being part of an online support group, which basically becomes what happens when you start writing about being bipolar, helps because you know that there are others out there like you. There are people that feel the same weird ass feelings that you feel. There are people that have tons of experience with the disease and that helps if you are newly diagnosed.

 

Do I feel more upbeat after I write? Sometimes. I think it totally depends on whats going on in my head. Usually I am helped by the people that visit here. The folks that comment really help me with decisions, help me cope, help me see things in a different way. That’s why I suggest blogging if youre bipolar. It takes a lot of guts for a lot of people to put themselves out there, but I think its worth it. It has been to me anyway.

 

Just a note on how I'm feeling Bipolar-wise: I have really felt very stable the past few months. I have up and down days of course, but nothing thats totally off the wall, as has been the case in the past. Im actually happy with where I am as far as my mood goes. Im happy with my meds. I still have crappy side effects, but I guess you have to figure out what you give and take, what makes your quality of life be the best it can be.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Tying the Knot

March 10th. I'm overly excited. Planning a wedding is fun....Im sure I wont say that in a couple of months though. Everyone is invited....yes, the entire world.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Whats Going On

Today is my sisters birthday. She ran away about 15 years ago. I havent seen her since then. She was my best friend. This day is always hard for me because I think about her a lot. I hope she is safe and happy somewhere. I usually try to go out to eat or do something on her birthday to remember her.

 

Not much is happening. We went to Jackson the other night and I got my tattoo partially colored. I still have to get the Koi colored though.

 

I have a couple of major papers due soon. That sucks, I am tired of papers!! We are doing some cool stuff in Modeling & Animation though, and that almost makes up for the fact that we have to write such a stupid paper for that class.

 

Things are still great with JW. We hang out every day. He stayed over this weekend and we had fun. I think we are going to go eat with my mom and my step-dad tonight. We usually do on Wednesday nights.

 

JW met my dad this weekend. It went well. Usually my dad is an ass, but he was nice. We met his new girlfriend (he just got divorced for the 900th time). She seemed nice. I have never brought anyone home to meet my dad, so this was a big deal. We had breakfast with JW’s parents Sunday morning and that was cool. They went to a lot of trouble for breakfast. His mom cooked and it was awesome. They were very nice to me, and his mom emailed him later and said she liked me a lot. That made me feel pretty good.

 

I got another ticket the other day. This time for an expired tag, although I had a valid tag in my car that I had not put on yet. What an ass. I showed him my new tag and he told me to show it to the judge. I have to go to court on the 7th. Nice, huh.

 

Thats about it, I guess.